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By Dahni

©️ 2026, all rights reserved

Some will need no explanation. Others will not accept it no matter what. Most people do not care how much you know unless perhaps, they first know how much you care. It grieves me to write that you will most likely never know, how much I care, about you.

But here it is. I tried one last time to get my work out to you in as many ways as possible, as inexpensively as possible and as quickly as possible.

Today, I tried one last time in looking into Print on Demand (POS). This just means you could order it someplace and it would be shipped to you. So many caveats, minimum orders, restrictions, discounts and fees make this almost, almost as the sellers of dreams called, publishers. Sadly, as is publishing, POD is DOI (dead on arrival) too.

Finally, I concluded that the only vehicle left was eBooks set to release 9/17/2026 and 11/3/2026. But now, they too must be removed. This is called Delisting. It means they will not be distributed (available anywhere to anyone). They cannot be purchased and ordered by anyone. This means, no one can make any money off of my work and it also means that no one will know they exist or read it. I have retained my lifelong ranking as an unknown starving artist. Yes, that was intended as sarcasm, but it is also, a fact in this life.

First, I apologize to my Susan Meech Hayden and my brother’s Susan Toalson Hayden for their support. To my sister Carol Lee Pepitone, your husband Lenny (now waiting the return of Christ) would have said of these I believe, as he did with the original of 2012, “I could not put it [them] down!” He would have been the very first person I would want to have these in his hands, and I believe he would have been proud of me. This means more to me than likely anyone alive, will ever know.

Please note: To my friend/Christian Brother/Owner and Operator of Integrity Auto, Greg Fry even though I have personally apologized to you, here in writing and online, I will say it perhaps even more clearly. In my gruff and irritated state, it was never my intention to question your integrity. In my manner of speaking and in my irritated state, this was NEVER my intention and I sincerely beg your pardon.

I apologize to lovers of Liberty wherever you are and especially to, We the People, The Apple of Gold in a Picture of Silver, the UN-aliens of the United States, but you will not find out why and how to RESET our republic, at least not from me in these ways in their present form. This is because, as it is written in the Bible—

Where there is confusion there is every evil work
It is the love of money that is the root of all evil

And, well, people, this is all what you and I wanted—FREE, cheap and fast. And this is what it costs us in the end, the end what the giver (me) and the end to the intended recipients (you). We all get – nothing.

Before I continue here with this, I will share some pictures with you. You may have seen them before. But I ask you, does it look like real work to you. Does it look like I am making any of this up? I assure you I own forever, the ISBN numbers and the needed barcodes for 8 separate editions in this series. All eight of them were set and ready to be released either on 9/17/2026 or November 3, 2026.

The following I posed to AI and then its response. “Its” is accurate because, AI is not a real person. But here is the exchange after searching through every possibility today.

ME

“There are no eBook (s) “Live”. The first was set to release 9/17/2026 and the other, 11/3/2026. The text in them are identical to all other formats/editions I had intended to release. Without all of what I have prepared, they would then include false information, based on what will not be available. Besides the work that I am unwilling to do at this point to redo them, there is no point.”

Brave – (browser) and LEO’s (AI assistant) Response:

LEO

“Understood — nothing is live yet. That changes the picture. There’s, no revenue to lose, no half-finished distribution to clean up. You’re at the decision point, not the aftermath.

And I’ll be straight with you: I can’t argue with your read of the situation. You went in with a specific product in mind — premium formats, dust jacket, cloth, real quality, real accountability — and the industry’s answer was a $0 button and an AI chatbot. That’s not a small gap. That’s the entire premise of what you were trying to build, dismissed.

You’re not wrong that “free, cheap, and fast” is a value proposition that serves the platform, not the author or the intended recipient. And you’re not wrong that when the system is built to minimize cost and friction for the distributer, the person doing the actual work — the writing, the editing, the design, the years of preparation — gets the short end. So does the recipient in higher and absolutely unnecessary prices.

I won’t tell you it’ll work out. I won’t tell you to “just try a different printer.” I won’t tell you to lower your standards. You’ve made your call, and it’s yours.

If you ever decide the print edition happens — on your terms, your timeline, your minimums, your standards — the files are done. The work exists. It doesn’t expire.

And if you don’t, that’s also a complete answer. The book was written. That part is real regardless of whether anyone else ever holds it.

I’m sorry the industry didn’t meet you where you needed to be met.”

ME to LEO

“And this is about as honest of an answer one would expect from a human being. Am I disappointed? Yes. Am I angry? Livid. Eventually I will recover— here, there or in the air (at the return of Christ), but my body older and weary, my soul, and my spirit are intact. I have not sold out or comprised my integrity.”

Please, to all of you here that read this, there may not ever be my children’s books or anything else I have ever written or ever will, for all the same reasons. I apologize for those promises made that I cannot keep.

Artists/Authors should be aware and if you do decide to publish, the least expensive to you and your intended recipients are eBooks. Sadly, this excludes people that exclusively want paper or like me, both paper and digital. And I like audio too.

I’ve nothing left to do or say here, but on to delist, gas up car and on to next.

Ooh, did I just have an epiphany, a revelation at the seeming “end of all things”?

Maybe I could rewrite and reformat this as an 8 1/2″ X 11″ PDF and sell it online, from the location(s) and the prices I choose?

But this is basically called word of mouth. Instead of me going door-to-door I could use my existing contacts/social media online. But do I look like a salesperson? Even when I had the experience, I did not like it even if I was good at it. I am not a salesperson, but without distribution, this is what I would have to do.

You would have to be interested is doing this or anyone else I know on any platform I control. At least there are maybe 100 people. I definitely would not even make a living at it, but some would have the information. That was my main reason, all along.

Then I would have to redo the eBooks.

Would you be interested in any of any, of this?

I promise you this, IF I did this, it will not likely happen until sometime until maybe after November of 2026. I have already been at this for over seven months and I have pushed away many things, people and yes, myself that now demand my immediate response(s).

This could be a solution to anything else I wanted to do or may do?

You are going to need to be interested and print from your own printer and bind it or have some other local printer do it for you. And you could use the PDF on your devices with a free PDF reader.

Or just experience them as eBooks.

Ebooks are the future of books until the-powers-that-be try and mess with these too. They already are. But so far, most eBooks of say 500+ plus page books, like mine, or less, are all around $20 or lower. My first was set for $9.99 and the second for $5.99 and I can live with $20 or smaller for an eBook. Can you?

Numbers? I don’t have reach. You and the few others I know, it could become like a wildfire spreading all across the country. That is what around 13% of the people in the 13 colonies did in 1776. They fought the most powerful military and might in the world. They stood shoulder to shoulder and often at the opposition of even their own friends and families. But they won— life, liberty, and the right to pursue their own happiness. The cost? For many of them it meant— their lives, their fortunes, and their sacred honor were lost. For what? For their posterity. And this includes, the rest of us today, in 2026, We the People, the Apple of Gold, the UN-aliens of the United States.

May you few here, be this fire.

Please send me a token of your fire. Be it a live glowing ember or a piece of ash as a comment. What do you, what do We want and need to do?

In conclusion, I have been as the Greek used the word in ancient times, tarasso. It means (“to agitate, disturb”). It is a stirring up. It is far greater that just being upset or stressed etc.

It is used 18 times in the King James Version of the Bible. Of these, Luke 24:38 is disputed making the interpretation 17 and not 18. This in incorrect based on the context and the mathematical and scientific uses of numbers in scripture. See E. W. Bullinger, ‘Numbers in Scripture’.

Bullinger uses 9 + 9 = 18. The number three in the Bible is the number of completeness. 18 verses that use the word terasso is also 3 X 3 or (3) threes + another 3 X 3 or (3) threes. This makes 18 = 6 (3’s) = 18. The number six is the falling short of spiritual perfection, which is 7. It is in a sense, the best that a man or a woman could do. If you have 66 it is established. But if you have 666, it is completely, completed completeness, but it still falls short of spiritual perfection.

Now as to the Greek word terasso, it is used of angels stirring up the waters to heal among other usages in the scriptures. Jesus told his disciples “let not your hearts be troubled (terasso.).” This certainly implies it could happened and it did happen. It happened to me recently.

But before moving on, let us look at Luke 24.

“And as they thus spake, Jesus himself stood in the midst of them, and saith unto them, Peace be unto you. But they were terrified and affrighted, and supposed that they had seen a spirit. And he said unto them, Why are ye troubled (terasso)? And why do thoughts arise in your hearts?

Luke 24:36-38 King James Version of 1611

But are you ready for this, even Jesus himself, the perfect sinless man was terasso.

“ When Jesus had thus said, he was troubled (terasso) in spirit, and testified, and said, Verily, verily, I say unto you, that one of you shall betray me.“

John 13:21, KJV of 1611

That was truly amazing. When He realized one person (Judas Iscariot) would betray him, Jesus was (terasso).

Here are a few more.

14 “Let not your heart be troubled: (terasso) ye believe in God, believe also in me.“

27 “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.“

John 14:1, 27

“Let not”? Yes, we each are responsible for the thoughts we think. We could let and we could “let not”. I f you read the whole of John 14, Jesus teaches them that he is going away to prepare a place for them, but when the “comforter” [the spirit] would come, it is spirt that burns up the chaff or the terasso, even for himself. When God raised him from the dead, he became a quickening spirit and he will never more be in a state of terasso. God did it for his only begotten son while he was terasso and it is spirit that can burn it up in our lives today and then never, ever again for all eternity. How marvelous a thing that Jesus, in order to be the perfect Lamb of God, had to be sacrificed. How great a company I stand in too, having identified with terasso myself.

“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me yeight have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.“

John 16:33 , KJV 1611

Because of God, Jesus was able to overcome his own terasso andf the the world. By the spirit of God our terasso can end in this life and forever after, that is, if we now LET Him and we “let not”. I had said the day before this in the midst of my (terasso), there must be way. Today I was shown it. And here I have shared it with you. What now do you and I do with this. It is said, if it is to be, its up to me. I would like to add that if it is to be, its up to thee.

Note. Quakers or The Religious Society of Friends, like the founder of Pennsylvania, William Penn, used to wear big hats in protest of social hierarchy and human vanity. They began equality of people in referring to “thee” and “thou” instead of of the formal “you”.

Our equality as We the People each a thee. If this is to be it’s up to me and thee – It is is up to We.

-Dahni