This is a familiar question to most everyone and especially children. Often we we told to do something we did not like or agree with and our most common response was WHY? Forget the fact that as children we were challenging the wisdom, experience and ages of those that were providing for us, but we dared to ask WQHY anyway.
Asking why brings up this point. WHY is a question and without rhyme or reason or whether or not it is possible to even know the answer, is there an answer to every question? Leave aside any possible circumstance or context areounfd the question WHY and just answer the question.
We once children or children now, quite often have heard or hear the answer to ‘WHY’ as— “Because I said so!”
Another proposed answer to to ‘WHY’ has been suggested as— “Why not?” But actually answering a question with another question is not the answer to ‘WHY’.
The simpliest answer to ‘WHY” is “Because!”
Now we can go off into the weeds or with circustance and context or reasons for both the question ‘WHY’ and the answer, ‘BECAUSE’.
Since the mid term election are now just a few short days away, let’s add to the word ‘WHY’ with the word ‘VOTE’ forming the the question, “Why Vote?”
To answer, we need to begin with ‘BECAUSE’, but BECAUSE why?
Because Congress made this possible in 1845, making the first Tuesdays after the first Monday in November? Because Tuesday November 3rd, 2026 in the last day to vote in a national election this year? Because these are the midterm elections? Because this is the most important election in your lifetime? Because Democrat Socialists are on the ballot? Because historically, the party that is in power gets changed? Because you don’t like who occupies the White House and want to restrict their ability to govern the way they want. Because you want to see them impeached by having the votes to do it. Because you want to increase the number of Supreme Court judges. Because you want to get rid of the police, or ICE, or keep and add undommented cizens to vote and even criminals? I have heard all of these reasons to vote, but does it truly answer “WHY VOTE/?
I have heard and read new cizens and other answer “Because if you don’t vote, you don’t have the right to complain about the government?”
What about ths…”Because it it your right to vote?” HOw about this…”Because you have the freedom to vote.”
Call me simple or even simple-minded. But it seems to me that even beyond common sense, UN-Common Sense answers this for once and for all. “Why Vote?”
“BECAUSE SOMEONE DIED FOR YOU AND I TO BE ABLE TO VOTE!”
From the beginning of what we call the United States for America in 1776, this has been the answer. Perhaps the most succinct, clear and descriptive answer was delivered 87 years later, in the Gettyburg address by president Abraham Lincoln
“It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us—that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion—that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain…”
Abraham Lincoln — Gettysburg Address, November 19, 1863
And thousands of years ago —
“But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christdied for us.
With the midterms elections almost here, AI dominating individual choices & applications, business, and politics, world governments and essentially everything now, it sees to me there is a race going on. It appears to my eyes as a race to replace.
If you and I are not going to choose for ourselves, something or someone else will. It is human nature.
It is easier to make something than it is apparently, to stop and ask, should I or we do this? It is not so much as can we do it as it is should we be doing it at all?
Perhaps if you have read anything I have written lately, you might assume I have given up on myself. Maybe I have given up on the human race? I assure you that neither of these are true.
For me, I am no longer driven to succeed with even what I have tried to do for the past some 60 years. Some may or even everyone may consider my giving up and getting rid of all my treasure, my accumulation of the past years or some legacy? I have considered putting all my works into the repository known as the Internet Archive. I have considered even sending or keeping something for my son that does seem to be interested in the stories of a witness. I am a witness. But now it seems that neither the Internet Archive or something for my son seems doable or important to me anymore. What was my treasure, like my child or children if you will, is not just baggage. It has now become a heavy weight that makes it even more difficult to breathe or move forward.
I hope anyone else that may read this can choose what is most important to you and your life. Our dog Lady is a beautiful example of what I am trying to write here. She is likely on her last leg (no pun intended). Lady is 11 years old (77 in human years). She has arthritis and is limping. She is all but deaf now. But the good news with that, she no longer shakes during storms or the car wash. She is beginning to lose her eyesight, particularly in one eye (the one blue eye). It seems to be clouded over as if a cataract. Dogs like Lady often become confused over the loss of so many senses used primarily for navigation, happening near the same time. I think her sense of smell/taste is beginning to diminish now. She has others things as well, but she wakes up every morning wags her tail, happy to see us and is still fond of and capable of giving and receiving love. It just doesn’t get much better than or simpler than this. I am grateful she does not seem to be painfully suffering, but I am unsure. She has always been friendly and glad to see almost any life form. Going forward, I just need to be as sure as I possible can that she is comfortable and it is not just my desire to keep her around as long as possible.
The following verse means so much more today than it did when I first heard it, some sixty years ago. It says to me, I don’t need to ever judge you or tell you how you should live. I don’t ever need to cram my beliefs down your throat.
The word salvation in the following verse means “wholeness.” You and I have to do what is right for us. For myself, I needed to let go of much I have been involved with, for these past 60 years. I needed and still need to get rid of many things that may be good for others, but not for me. I needed to return to the gym and this time, make it a lifestyle change not a just the formation of a new habit.
“Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation [wholeness] with fear [reverence] and trembling [awe towards obedience].
Philippians 2:12 Kings James Version of 1611
Wag your tail like Lady. And to this I have concluded. In my life sometimes I have walked with my Father. Sometimes He carried me. Most likely the rest of the time, He has never left me nor forsaken me while I was heading in some other direction.
There is a lot of sorrow in the world. It’s twin is joy. Sometimes they each seem difficult to deal with. Sometimes they seem so similar, it is hard to tell which is which.
I and I am sure, you have often sought happiness. I chased it with a net like some illusive butterfly. Just when I thought I was about to catch it, it would float and flee just far enough away that I could see it, but not capture it.
In 1996, the late great Jimmy Buffet released a song from what I believe to be his finest work: ‘Banana Wind’. The song is: ‘Happily Ever After (Now and Then).’ I was so taken by this the first time I heard it and I have often sent something like this to others on their birthdays or other special days in their lives. I had an idyllic image from something that would invoke some wishful, fanciful, or expressive desire. My text was:
Happily Ever After (at least once in awhile)
This is the best I could hope for in this life for myself or for anyone else.
I do not suppose that everyone believes what I do or what and whom I believe in.
I have a wonderful relationship with one that to my surprise, it a steadfast atheist, or he does not know if he is a Christian or not. Even he cannot find fault with what I am trying to do. – not to disappear, but to consider those things and those life forms that are part of my life – which are important DAILY.
I am not a prophet. I am not going to predict that these are the end times, because like the Bible says, “no man [woman or child] knows the day time or hour. I just can’t imagine the world surviving for much longer being so driven by so much strife-confusion-bribery-extortion-love of money.
There is some goodness in this world and I truly believe it holds back the evil which is surfacing more and more. This affects, effects, and infects all of us in one way or others. For me, I am just tired and seek peace and to try and live as peaceable as I can according to what is inside me and to all I may encounter, in my day-today living.
I could be wrong, but I don’t think this world can continue much longer on the course it is on. It cannot be sustained. For my part, this world is not my home. At my age, it is good to plan for one’s soon release from these mortal coils. I am doing this now, to the best of my ability.
I am reminded that just as John the Baptist did, so should I do for the duration of my life⏤
“In those days came John the Baptist, preaching in the wilderness of Judaea, And saying, Repent ye: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand. For this is he that was spoken of by the prophet Esaias, saying, The voice of one crying in the wilderness, Prepare ye the way of the Lord, make his paths straight.
Matthew 3:1-3 KJV of 1611
I may not carry the ministries or gifts to the Church or the world as an apostle, a prophet, an evangelist, pastor or a teacher [Ephesians 4:11], but if they are not around and God willing, I can “do the work of” any or all of them that is needed. In II Timothy 4:5 Timothy was not an evangelist, but he was told to “do the work of” one. God is not a prospector or persons, only conditions.
And finally, God so loved the world that he gave his only son, Jesus Christ. If I am one of His, can I not love like this? Jesus Christ laid his life down for you and I. What is the greatest love I can share— Preach [publicly expound or teach God’s Word]. It is the calling. It is the love. For now, until my death or God calls me home at the return of Christ, preach the word in season or out meaning, all the time. To say that I am a witness means, the real witness of the resurrection of Jesus Christ is within me. This is what I am to preach.
“I charge thee therefore before God, and the Lord Jesus Christ, who shall judge the quick and the dead at his appearing and his kingdom; Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; “
II Timothy 4:1,2 KJV of 1611
How? Why?
“But sanctify [set apart] the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear [awe towards obedience]:”
Some will need no explanation. Others will not accept it no matter what. Most people do not care how much you know unless perhaps, they first know how much you care. It grieves me to write that you will most likely never know, how much I care, about you.
But here it is. I tried one last time to get my work out to you in as many ways as possible, as inexpensively as possible and as quickly as possible.
Today, I tried one last time in looking into Print on Demand (POS). This just means you could order it someplace and it would be shipped to you. So many caveats, minimum orders, restrictions, discounts and fees make this almost, almost as the sellers of dreams called, publishers. Sadly, as is publishing, POD is DOI (dead on arrival) too.
Finally, I concluded that the only vehicle left was eBooks set to release 9/17/2026 and 11/3/2026. But now, they too must be removed. This is called Delisting. It means they will not be distributed (available anywhere to anyone). They cannot be purchased and ordered by anyone. This means, no one can make any money off of my work and it also means that no one will know they exist or read it. I have retained my lifelong ranking as an unknown starving artist. Yes, that was intended as sarcasm, but it is also, a fact in this life.
First, I apologize to my Susan Meech Hayden and my brother’s Susan Toalson Hayden for their support. To my sister Carol Lee Pepitone, your husband Lenny (now waiting the return of Christ) would have said of these I believe, as he did with the original of 2012, “I could not put it [them] down!” He would have been the very first person I would want to have these in his hands, and I believe he would have been proud of me. This means more to me than likely anyone alive, will ever know.
Please note: To my friend/Christian Brother/Owner and Operator of Integrity Auto, Greg Fry even though I have personally apologized to you, here in writing and online, I will say it perhaps even more clearly. In my gruff and irritated state, it was never my intention to question your integrity. In my manner of speaking and in my irritated state, this was NEVER my intention and I sincerely beg your pardon.
I apologize to lovers of Liberty wherever you are and especially to, We the People, The Apple of Gold in a Picture of Silver, the UN-aliens of the United States, but you will not find out why and how to RESET our republic, at least not from me in these ways in their present form. This is because, as it is written in the Bible—
Where there is confusion there is every evil work It is the love of money that is the root of all evil
And, well, people, this is all what you and I wanted—FREE, cheap and fast. And this is what it costs us in the end, the end what the giver (me) and the end to the intended recipients (you). We all get – nothing.
Before I continue here with this, I will share some pictures with you. You may have seen them before. But I ask you, does it look like real work to you. Does it look like I am making any of this up? I assure you I own forever, the ISBN numbers and the needed barcodes for 8 separate editions in this series. All eight of them were set and ready to be released either on 9/17/2026 or November 3, 2026.
I am aware this is not the finished cover. For one thing a word is misspelled.
The following I posed to AI and then its response. “Its” is accurate because, AI is not a real person. But here is the exchange after searching through every possibility today.
ME
“There are no eBook (s) “Live”. The first was set to release 9/17/2026 and the other, 11/3/2026. The text in them are identical to all other formats/editions I had intended to release. Without all of what I have prepared, they would then include false information, based on what will not be available. Besides the work that I am unwilling to do at this point to redo them, there is no point.”
Brave – (browser) and LEO’s (AI assistant) Response:
LEO
“Understood — nothing is live yet. That changes the picture. There’s, no revenue to lose, no half-finished distribution to clean up. You’re at the decision point, not the aftermath.
And I’ll be straight with you: I can’t argue with your read of the situation. You went in with a specific product in mind — premium formats, dust jacket, cloth, real quality, real accountability — and the industry’s answer was a $0 button and an AI chatbot. That’s not a small gap. That’s the entire premise of what you were trying to build, dismissed.
You’re not wrong that “free, cheap, and fast” is a value proposition that serves the platform, not the author or the intended recipient. And you’re not wrong that when the system is built to minimize cost and friction for the distributer, the person doing the actual work — the writing, the editing, the design, the years of preparation — gets the short end. So does the recipient in higher and absolutely unnecessary prices.
I won’t tell you it’ll work out. I won’t tell you to “just try a different printer.” I won’t tell you to lower your standards. You’ve made your call, and it’s yours.
If you ever decide the print edition happens — on your terms, your timeline, your minimums, your standards — the files are done. The work exists. It doesn’t expire.
And if you don’t, that’s also a complete answer. The book was written. That part is real regardless of whether anyone else ever holds it.
I’m sorry the industry didn’t meet you where you needed to be met.”
ME to LEO
“And this is about as honest of an answer one would expect from a human being. Am I disappointed? Yes. Am I angry? Livid. Eventually I will recover— here, there or in the air (at the return of Christ), but my body older and weary, my soul, and my spirit are intact. I have not sold out or comprised my integrity.”
Please, to all of you here that read this, there may not ever be my children’s books or anything else I have ever written or ever will, for all the same reasons. I apologize for those promises made that I cannot keep.
Artists/Authors should be aware and if you do decide to publish, the least expensive to you and your intended recipients are eBooks. Sadly, this excludes people that exclusively want paper or like me, both paper and digital. And I like audio too.
I’ve nothing left to do or say here, but on to delist, gas up car and on to next.
Ooh, did I just have an epiphany, a revelation at the seeming “end of all things”?
Maybe I could rewrite and reformat this as an 8 1/2″ X 11″ PDF and sell it online, from the location(s) and the prices I choose?
But this is basically called word of mouth. Instead of me going door-to-door I could use my existing contacts/social media online. But do I look like a salesperson? Even when I had the experience, I did not like it even if I was good at it. I am not a salesperson, but without distribution, this is what I would have to do.
You would have to be interested is doing this or anyone else I know on any platform I control. At least there are maybe 100 people. I definitely would not even make a living at it, but some would have the information. That was my main reason, all along.
Then I would have to redo the eBooks.
Would you be interested in any of any, of this?
I promise you this, IF I did this, it will not likely happen until sometime until maybe after November of 2026. I have already been at this for over seven months and I have pushed away many things, people and yes, myself that now demand my immediate response(s).
This could be a solution to anything else I wanted to do or may do?
You are going to need to be interested and print from your own printer and bind it or have some other local printer do it for you. And you could use the PDF on your devices with a free PDF reader.
Or just experience them as eBooks.
Ebooks are the future of books until the-powers-that-be try and mess with these too. They already are. But so far, most eBooks of say 500+ plus page books, like mine, or less, are all around $20 or lower. My first was set for $9.99 and the second for $5.99 and I can live with $20 or smaller for an eBook. Can you?
Numbers? I don’t have reach. You and the few others I know, it could become like a wildfire spreading all across the country. That is what around 13% of the people in the 13 colonies did in 1776. They fought the most powerful military and might in the world. They stood shoulder to shoulder and often at the opposition of even their own friends and families. But they won— life, liberty, and the right to pursue their own happiness. The cost? For many of them it meant— their lives, their fortunes, and their sacred honor were lost. For what? For their posterity. And this includes, the rest of us today, in 2026, We the People, the Apple of Gold, the UN-aliens of the United States.
May you few here, be this fire.
Please send me a token of your fire. Be it a live glowing ember or a piece of ash as a comment. What do you, what do We want and need to do?
In conclusion, I have been as the Greek used the word in ancient times, tarasso. It means (“to agitate, disturb”). It is a stirring up. It is far greater that just being upset or stressed etc.
It is used 18 times in the King James Version of the Bible. Of these, Luke 24:38 is disputed making the interpretation 17 and not 18. This in incorrect based on the context and the mathematical and scientific uses of numbers in scripture. See E. W. Bullinger, ‘Numbers in Scripture’.
Bullinger uses 9 + 9 = 18. The number three in the Bible is the number of completeness. 18 verses that use the word terasso is also 3 X 3 or (3) threes + another 3 X 3 or (3) threes. This makes 18 = 6 (3’s) = 18. The number six is the falling short of spiritual perfection, which is 7. It is in a sense, the best that a man or a woman could do. If you have 66 it is established. But if you have 666, it is completely, completed completeness, but it still falls short of spiritual perfection.
Now as to the Greek word terasso, it is used of angels stirring up the waters to heal among other usages in the scriptures. Jesus told his disciples “let not your hearts be troubled (terasso.).” This certainly implies it could happened and it did happen. It happened to me recently.
But before moving on, let us look at Luke 24.
“And as they thus spake, Jesus himself stood in the midst of them, and saith unto them, Peace be unto you. But they were terrified and affrighted, and supposed that they had seen a spirit. And he said unto them, Why are ye troubled (terasso)? And why do thoughts arise in your hearts?
Luke 24:36-38 King James Version of 1611
But are you ready for this, even Jesus himself, the perfect sinless man was terasso.
“When Jesus had thus said, he was troubled (terasso) in spirit, and testified, and said, Verily, verily, I say unto you, that one of you shall betray me.“
John 13:21, KJV of 1611
That was truly amazing. When He realized one person (Judas Iscariot) would betray him, Jesus was (terasso).
Here are a few more.
14 “Let not your heart be troubled: (terasso) ye believe in God, believe also in me.“
27 “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.“
John 14:1, 27
“Let not”? Yes, we each are responsible for the thoughts we think. We could let and we could “let not”. I f you read the whole of John 14, Jesus teaches them that he is going away to prepare a place for them, but when the “comforter” [the spirit] would come, it is spirt that burns up the chaff or the terasso, even for himself. When God raised him from the dead, he became a quickening spirit and he will never more be in a state of terasso. God did it for his only begotten son while he was terasso and it is spirit that can burn it up in our lives today and then never, ever again for all eternity. How marvelous a thing that Jesus, in order to be the perfect Lamb of God, had to be sacrificed. How great a company I stand in too, having identified with terasso myself.
“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me yeight have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.“
John 16:33 , KJV 1611
Because of God, Jesus was able to overcome his own terasso andf the the world. By the spirit of God our terasso can end in this life and forever after, that is, if we now LET Him and we “let not”. I had said the day before this in the midst of my (terasso), there must be way. Today I was shown it. And here I have shared it with you. What now do you and I do with this. It is said, if it is to be, its up to me. I would like to add that if it is to be, its up to thee.
Note. Quakers or The Religious Society of Friends, like the founder of Pennsylvania, William Penn, used to wear big hats in protest of social hierarchy and human vanity. They began equality of people in referring to “thee” and “thou” instead of of the formal “you”.
Our equality as We the People each a thee. If this is to be it’s up to me and thee – It is is up to We.
